Ma Virtual Diary

in this rat race world, i belong to a workforce known as SWAT ( Special Walking Alive Target )…my main job scope is to walk in a battlefield/warzone to gather intel, strategize a winning formula, execute and evacuate…its all in a day’s work for me…most of the time it revolves around executing missions which are impossible and make it possible at all cost…..

this is 1 job where the Navy Seals, Spetnaz, MI 5, etc would rather sit out…y? cause its a new age war called Corporate War…much stronger and deadlier than any war i have ever known..

its Special because it is a battlefield/warzone where i will not be physically hurt but will get mentally/emotionally traumatized

its Walking Alive Target because everywhere u go, everyone u talk to, you will always get the same energetic stare everytime you say "NO" OR "Dont Know" OR "Cannot Be Done" OR "A patch is required" OR "An upgrade is required" OR "We need more time"….then this energetic stare will slowly transform to kinetic energy and finally gets released through the mouth in the form of "I pay you to solve problems, not create more problems"..AND…"I will not pay for the additional man-days your asking for because you promised to complete within X man-days"…AND…"Your incompetent, I want to speak to your team lead/project manager"…AND.."Resolve it at all cost except financial cost because its causing us business downtime"

take note of the OR & AND…what it means is that any of the OR responses will get a reply of all the AND….

due to this fact, some of us has decided to train ourselves in the secret deadly art of Ninjitsu..i m one of them….this ancient old art has thought me to be a master of camouflage and tactictian, and most importantly, the art of escaping an attack where it is humanly impossible….so des ne……….

some however, choose a much relaxing and stressless method of practising the art of Tai Chi…;)…borrowing energy to throw another energy…:D…

haihh….will i ever be able to fit into a common civilian environment??…lets see how it goes may 7th onwards…;)

fuiyorr…for these latest obsession, i definitely gotta blame my gf & my collegue….my collegue has this group of friends who occassionally burn dvd movies downloaded from net and distribute them…shes famous for watching korean movies…i was out for food with her and her sister..and they both told me that they watched different series at home when they hav the free time…

of course, this collegue naturally tried to "poison" me…"ehh, i got some english series..come watch la..prison break ar…heroes ar..", and i said "no thanks !!, for a guy who can watch 4 movies in 1 day alone in the cinema, i dun think i should get hooked up with series…the last time when i watched series was when Initial D was out with Season 1 - 4…i watched that continuously for days !!"…

then last weekend as i was running away from home, i sat in a cyber cafe doing nothing…then i found a shared folder with some anime in it, so i thought, "ahhh, well, y not??"…and it turned to be such an interesting anime..its called Naruto !!..the 1st season has got like 160++ episodes !! and the 2nd season which was the one i was watching is still in production….the 2nd season is called Naruto Shiipuden…ooo my god…i instantly looked for website to download this….bloody hell, damm good !! man…now i m eager to see what happens next…i hope it doesnt go to another 100++ episodes again..japanese anime is just way too famous for those lengthy series !!

and today…my gf borrowed Heroes from her collegue !!..season 1, episode 1-11…and she asked me to watch it first…my god !! and i m sitting here at 2am watching the 1st episode…bloody hell, its damm bloody good !!, how issit that a director can direct such beautifully crafted story line???…the plot, etc…

there goes my sleep during weekdays and weekends !!

recently the movie taxi 4 came out…for those who have watched taxi 1 -3, i m sure you might have find it interesting…this is the french movie that i m taking about starring samy naceri….

haih…end of april is here again, time for the most saddest moment of my life !! declaring tax !!!…goshh…after 3 years of filling up the stupid BE form ( Berri Expensive form )…i m beginning to feel the pinch seeing the amount in "Cukai Kena Dibayar" field growing every year….

and they say our tax is one of the lowest around the world??..i cannot imagine that fact !!

hehehehe…recently kai mui complained that she has to read all that is goin on with my life through my blogs as i no longer chat and update her in messenger….muahahaha..sounded so sad as i hav neglected her presence..making her wonder if i still remember that she exist as my kai mui…

wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll…………………answer is of course NO…dun so sad kai mui…nah, kai kor kor open 1 blog for u….:D….

since i also dun hav her updated "juicy" stories, i would just probably tell the whole world how we met…:D…it was way back to uni days when we occassionally brushed shoulders during lecture room transfer, on the way to library, etc…i could hav been brushing shoulders with hundreds of ppl during lecture room transfer and also on the way to library rite? so why am i specifically noticing her??

answer is definitely not because i m searching for a gf…probably more because of "washing eyes" !!..anyway, this kai mui of mine has exceptionally fair skin that will radiantly reflect the sunlight off her skin and u will notice something shining from far away..muahahaha…eat ur hearts out OLAY users !!…

this lady is extraordinary in personality, sweet, caring and understanding…got to know her better during our uni trip to redang…my 1st trip to a beach, my 1st time snorkelling, my 1st time falling in love with diving and of course 1st time getting to know her better…we belong to different group of friends…after she moved out of melaka, i do visit her occassionally in cyber and we kept pretty much in touch through YM and email…wonders of technology !!

unfortunately she lives far far away…if only she was somewhere nearby…;)

the evening was a very nerve wreaking one as i face the accounting paper exam the next 2 days…over the period of the last 2 years, i hav done minimal exercise in accounting let alone understanding the concept of debits/credits, which one goes where, etc…i decided to spent time in my buddy’s place just to chill out…one thing let to another and the next thing i know, i was studying accounting with the cousin sister !!…excellent smart lady who felt that our accounting knowledge sucks big time !!

that nite i bunked over at his place sleeping in the apartment enjoying the cool air breeze as we doozed off in the living room…ironically those were the times where "sarong party gals" was a hot topic…and here i m, staying overnite @ a fren’s place for the very first time….

10 years later, last weekend was a true reminiscence of how much quality time we have actually missed after we moved on with our own life 10 years ago…not to mention "interesting" time full of aftermath mind boggling questions of "now, y did i do that??"….life was so much easier 10 years ago, though we get the constant bickering of " have u finished ur homework? what? no?? then why are u going out / watching tv?? "…

come to think about it, i dun think i have ever taken picture with my buddy before…wondering why issit so…10++ years of friendship and we dont have a single picture taken together…hmmm…

John Constantine ( potrayed by Keanu Reeves in the movie "Constantine" ) mentioned that "god & devil made a wager. a standing bet for the souls of all mankind. angels and demons cant cross into our plane. instead they influence us, the peddlers, through half breeds by whispering into our ears. a single word can give you strength & courage or turn your favourite pleasure into your worst nightmare"

will i ever know if theres some truth in the statement?

today, an interesting happened..i learnt a new definition to being diligent and commited…we hav this periodic task @ work where we would need to run some processes over the weekend…these processes need to be documented down step by step in a word document with screen shots so that the person whos responsible to carry it out will get it done correctly and successfully….

i noticed that my collegue has been reviewing this for the past week..so i asked her, "how come you are looking at this document still?"…she said shes worried that this coming weekend, these tasks cannot be completed…then i replied, if cannot complete then nvm lor, nothing can be done….then she said, "cannot la..during post mortem, we will at the receiving end if we dont pull it through"….

wow, i m so amazed by her dedication and commitment…previously when i was performing this same task ( i handed over to her ), i usually just look @ it once and then wait for the execution time….when and if theres trouble, i would take action there and then….such a contrast in our approach towards work…she would review, plan and minimize the risk of failure..where else i would review once, put it in, problem arise then resolve, move on…

while having lunch also she was thinkin about how the document can be improved…totally impressed with her perfectionist attitude paired with her diligence & commitment….this team is definitely gonna be in safe hands after i leave…

i m usually a very soundsleeper…sleep like a log everytime…dad complaints that i m not alert enough when i am asleep, anything happen around the house also wont knoe..hehehe…hardly have dreams also….however, i had 1 dream yesterday…rather distraughting…

i m travelling with my family & some other ppl in a lorry…the lorry broke down in front of a place where funeral was happening…so coincidentally theres a workshop next to it…so we all went in the workshop while waiting for the mechanic to fix this lorry….suddenly a lady walked out of the funeral procession and talked with one of the guy in our group and mentioned the dead body in the coffin looks alive !!!

all of a sudden the guy became an exorcist and started preparing his exorcism process….then suddenly my dad turned his head and said…"boy, dont look…lets go, this is not something good"….freaky part was that i was standing behind him and yet he was speaking as if i was just next to him….

which 1 was me?…freaky !!….this dream was so clear…anyone out there who can decipher dreams?

normally, i wouldnt hav time to do this…but my collegue recently went a shopping rampage in low yat, bought all the small stuff that she later on regret spending….one of the stuff she got fascinated most was a usb bluetooth device..i asked why she needed that..she said, to download/upload pictures lorr…

sooooo..here i m, piggy backing on her new found desire of bluetooth…borrowed her camera phone to take a picture of my cubicle and myself at work…

cheeky me, taking this picture and save it as a caller image on my collegue’s phone…

my boring cubicle with no life as described by my snorkelling buddy..noticed the cow beside my working laptop? courtesy of my snorkelling buddy to so called "add life" to my boring cubicle…

wow..bluetooth is amazing !! i want 1 too !!

wuhuuuu…recently i m meeting more and more ppl who are so passionate about their work that they are willing to work endless hours just like the old me, and probably the future me as well depending on my mood…

wow..sometimes i m caught in between, and get myself into a dilemma, single individual life vs endless work life…how do i balance it up??…my individual life only has 24 hours in a day…work life, has infinity hours….should i use up all 24 hours to work in the name of passion??

i was just chatting with my unimate aka "D Guru" ( hes my saviour during programming and networking classes…you can check him out in my pics where i commented, ‘me & my guru’ ) punya gf…in the accounting line, doing audit and preparing reports…so i just commented generally, "wow, so late, work cannot be brought home and wait 1st thing in the morning?".( its now 2.10am as i m typing this blog..she answered, "theres 20 others in the office working together with her"..i said "yarr…so???…thats not the point…i mean when u drive home later, are these 20 others ppl gonna be with u? no rite?, if u die, u die alone ( touch wood of course )"…and she said "wahhh..kena lecture..lucky i m not your gf"….muahahaha…that was funny…and ironic…i dunno how should i be reacting to this remark…

then i had another fren, recently promoted to be a manager..was commenting that day that she sometimes meet ppl who are not willing to sacrifice their time for work, she feels that ppl are giving less commitment and dedication..then i reasoned out with her..commitment and dedication comes from the heart and in order to have heart, u gotta have love for whatever that your doing…without love, how can there be heart, without heart, how can there be commitment and dedication??…having said that, should there be excessive love, heart, commitment and dedication that you sacrifice your life for it?

after my experience mentioned in my post ‘Dejavu Awakening’, things are beginning to look more scary now…these days, i leave work sharp @ 6pm and i would force my collegue ( attached collegue mentioned in my blog ‘Pest!! Wheres my RIDSECT??’ )….hmmm…and she listens, which is good but of course with some objections at times.."what?? so early?? dont know why wanna force me back so early !!"….i didnt say it out loud, but i would say it here…"for your own good, because there are many more work waiting in queue for you once i leave…;)"