as i lie awake for the past 24 hours, i’ve been trying to figure out what would be the best to celebrate merdeka, since its our 50th independence day, i thought, hey, why not make it a double celebration? i thought it was but till now after going through all the countdowns and what not, i m not sure myself if this is the case…once upon a time, merdeka meant alot to me, especially when i was back in high school, specifically form 2…that year ( 1994 ), it was a memorable year for me..i got involve in sports ( for the first time and no turning back ever since ), i met someone special, i became a school prefect ( which i hav always wanted to, since primary school ), i was in the 3rd class and i was part of the team who paraded for that year’s merdeka day ( our school was chosen for that year )..but these days, that feel seems to be diminishing..i wonder why..
it was a working day on the eve of merdeka for me, right after work, had to run errands for my pesky lil sister, had a quick dinner and then off to find my own activities…i need more and more of it these days to make myself tired as its been pretty difficult to sleep lately…i get dreams, nightmares and unsoundly sleep most of the time…well, since its a celebration day, probably anywhere around town is probably gonna be jammed pack so i decided to stick to the one nearest to my place..sunway pyramid !!..by the time i was there it was already close to 11.40pm..20 more minutes to count down..so i just walked around, looking @ the crowds, etc and interestingly enuff many ppl parked by the shoulder of the road, probably hoping to catch free fireworks ( free cause no need parking and no need to squeeze with the crowd )
paid my usual cover charge and went in Q Bar..they were having some sexy dance contest among 5 sexy ladies doing pole dances…the crowd got to vote who is the sexiest by screaming and cheering…the music that was blaring in the background was rihanna feat. jay-z’s Umbrella…fuiiiiiiiyorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr….the ladies were truly hot !!…i knoe hav an association in my mind already..everytime, in the future, hearing this song, i will always remember the ladies on the podium !!..by the time all this was done, countdown was just 5min away
as i stood quietly by the corner observing the crowd, preparing to count down, the DJ shouted, 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1………MERDEKA !!..and sudirman’s ever famous song of merdeka was aired….as i toast my beer, i saw the crowd going crazy singing to the lyrics, kept blowing their whistles, screaming and shouting…its just ironic come to think of it now cause, that feeling / thinking i had at that moment was "what if tunku saw how we celebrate merdeka now, what would his feeling be seeing us screaming our lungs out but truly,how many of us know and appreciate the real meaning of that word?" ( i myself DONT )..2nd thought that came across was…"in the near future, for every occassion, events, celebration…am i gonna be sharing it with more and more unknowns?"…then i knocked myself on the head.."helllloooooo, ur out chilling out !! whats with all these serious thoughts???"…
by the time all ended, it was close to 4am..i didnt find myself tired so i went to my usual "sarang" looked for my DVDs…during the day, i suddenly thought of a movie that is 3 years old and i wanted to buy it back then but until today havent…fortunately for me, i found it BUT in an 8 in 1 DVD..no choice had to buy it…as i was paying on the counter, i was BOURNE ULTIMATUM….OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!..this movie is not due to release until end of september !!…so i eagerly asked " cheng parn ar?"…as usual, respond would most certainly be, " pao cheng…mm cheng hoi yi lor farn lei wun"…and i replied.." ngor yu si !!"…and she obliged..when she turned it on, MAMA MIA…PERFECTO !!!…by the time i reached home, bath and brush teeth, it was already 5am…
as i am typing this blog now, its 9am and i just finished watching the 2 movies…and i realized the stories in these movies hav very close relation to merdeka…in one movie ( Throw Down ), its about one person finally stopped running from reality and decided to face it…and in another ( Bourne Ultimatum ), its about one person finally found out the truth about himself [ BUT BUT...i think there might be a 4th Bourne, damm...i hope there is, there are 1 or 2 loose ends not tied up and i cant sleep now partly cause of that !!..shit !! ]…in both movies, both finally merdeka…will the same fate fall upon me? i do wish,hope & pray it does in a smoothly and successful manner…