Ma Virtual Diary

i was staring point blank @ this friendster screen for about 5mins or so and i realized that i couldnt come up with a decent title to describe the content of this blog so i guess i will just leave it "untitled"…

ever since the "u suck" incident, i havent been able to push / motivate myself to move on…i guess the pain and dissapointment is still around when i thought it was gone..i found this out the "hard" way…was in the middle of an interview and this incident accidentally got blurted out of the blue..and i could feel the anger raging in me….which afterwards, my fren called and said.."hey, chuan..no matter how bad it is, never kutuk ur current project "….

then onli i snapped back to reality…"ooohhhh..wow..what just happened? i just got possessed by my own hatred demon !!"

and ironically, i fell sick..quite bad cough and sore throat to the extend that the doc gav strong medication that occassionally just knocks me off…i took this opportunity to stop working for the past week…so officially speaking, i hav not worked for 5 days….which i can consider as taking a break for myself…

i wonder how issit goin to be like goin back next week to work….challenges, challenges…

thats the aftermath of staying on a boat for 2 days !!…when i was first invited to do a LOB ( Live On Board ), i have always wondered if i will survive it cause i m rather weak when it comes to motion sickness..a simple trip up to cameron highlands is actually a very torturing trip for me !!

well, finally found the guts to do it last weekend..and surprisingly it turned out well..i just popped in 1 motion sickness tablet a day and i survived it…i even slept peacefully at nite !!..whoaaaa…impressed impressed…

some above 18 ONLY pictures to share..;)..

on the way up to the boat…

yvonne trying to challenge my love for posing infront of a camera…

about to start a dive, u can see that one leg is already in the wetsuit..and decided that posing for camera is more important than wearing wetsuit first !!

cant stop posing even underwater..

nonetheless, it was definitely a cool experience to live on board…and the food was excellent !!..the aunty is damm skillful in cooking even with a small kitchen onboard !!

coolness !!

well, atleast that was how i made it sounded like subtly over the email…but the whole content was about "u suck @ managing client’s expectation"…i feel relieve actually..i have never sent such an email to top management before and it feels good to let them know once in a while that employees do have the rights as well..

well, the reaction that i got this morning was that my development has been frozen and passed on to the next "expert" for design review before being passed back to me…so be it…surprisingly, i hav no "feel" about this…usually, when someone touches my design without asking for permission, i will be fuming like mad..but the first FEW things which came across my mind is " HOLIDAY !! ".." QUICKLY SHUT DOWN THE EMAIL AND INTERNAL MESSENGER.." …" LLB ( Look Like Bz ) and ignore any other requests thats coming in ..".."..time to party babe…"…

well, as i m typing this blog, i have done all of the above except for partying..probably sometime tonite i m gonna do that..hehehe

well..some of the feedbacks i hav gotten so far are …"wow..u lost ur cool?? this is so unlike u !!"…"i thought u loved ur job??"…"..i think u gotta be prepared to live with the consequences..making 1 enemy instead of a fren isnt really a good thing.."…

and coincidentally, a headhunter called me up asking me for my latest resume for 2 new opportunities and its really tempting..so i have already forwarded my resume for new job…WOW..this is just so amazing…every year without fail, i will be changing job..and this time, it hasnt even reached 1 year…hmmmm…goin to get a nick of being a job hopper soon !!